Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Okay! One down! 4 more to go!
GP today was... Err... Half good half bad. =/ Essay was not bad. Very safe essay topic. I hope. Killed by the compre. Grah. >.<
Econs tomorrow! =/ Sux when you know that you're lousy at something but can't help it. Zzz...
{1:29 PM}
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Okay... Just went to cut my hair and perhaps I'm really going mad but I decided to cut my fringe away. Haha. Never mind. It will be 4 months before I go for my next hair cut. Lol!
{2:48 PM}
Just one more day to go! Totally doesn't feel like it's promos at all (to me at least). Somehow I don't feel a tinge of stress or anxiety. Wonder if it's good or bad. =/ Till this very moment, I'm sort of done with Econs revision (read through my 15-page notes on the whole of year 1's work. Haha. That's almost equivalent to one chapter of lecture notes. LOL).
Papers all in the morning. Damn! No time to do last minute revision like what I did for blocks in the morning. >.<
Sometimes I wonder if I'm over-confident of myself. Are my expectations too low for me to spur myself on? It feels as if I'm not putting in the amount of effort that I'm 'supposed' to be putting in. Feels like I'm too easily satisfied with the results I'm getting. Doesn't sound like the Lennis I know of in the past at all.
The 4 years in CHS made me learn the negative aspect of being a perfectionist. Used to aim for nothing other than the top and one bad fall made me gave up that thought. Sometimes it gets tiring when one sets his mind on something for too long.
During this period of less than a year, I can see myself change. Totally. I'm taking my expectations ever so easily like never before. Coming to think of it, when have I ever thought that an A would suffice? Not until now I guess. Sometimes I ask myself, where have my motivation gone to?
But the fact that I'm thinking of this does show that to a certain extent I'm aware and I do care about my expectations I guess. Weird. Sometimes I really don't know myself.
Is this me or is it not? Or maybe it's someone else. Or perhaps I'm not Lennis anymore. Lennis never have such low expectations. Or maybe it's the other side of me. Sometimes people do have split personalities don't they?
Anyway, in case some of you reading this are thinking if I'm going mad, I'm not. Haha. Just some of the stupid thoughts that were racing in my mind. Yeah. Sometimes I don't know what the hell I'm thinking.
{11:22 AM}
Thursday, September 18, 2008
Haven't been updating this place really often these days. But I guess now isn't really a good time for me to be here since I should be doing my revision for promos which is coming in less than a week's time. =/
Don't really have the motivation or rather the sense of urgency to study. Don't know why. I guess I have been too slack and unmotivated to mug ever since O's. Perhaps it due to my not-so-high expectations compared to the past.
Sometimes I wonder what else do I hate people to say about me besides being said 小时了了大未必佳...
Is being said to be hypocritical...
{6:54 PM}
Sunday, September 7, 2008
Omg! I don't know what the hell is wrong with my phone! All the sms that are sent after 1630 yesterday are only received this morning! =/ Grah!! So sorry dao-ing those that sms-ed me during this period. =/
Brief update. MAF yesterday was fun! Haha. Though I got a pretty bad sunburnt and brief loss of voice. But well, at least we had fun as a class. =D
Dad just flew off again. Another 3 months. Mum is going to fly to somewhere for a week. So is home alone for me again~! >.<
Went back to CHS on last day of school for Teacher's Day. Almost my whole class turned up. Yay! Haha. Had a great time catching up with them. And I watched Death Race!!!!!! Woohoo! Haha!
Okay. Got to go off for tuition! Promos is coming in 2 weeks! Jiayou everyone!
{12:19 PM}