Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Sometimes I'm simply awed by the way my mood can actually change by something really trivial. Perhaps it isn't really a bad thing if it's something that makes me happy but it sucks when it's not.
Perhaps I think too much. Analyzing everything to the most minute detail possible. Sometimes (most of the time actually) it makes me really sick and tired rather than pissed/irritated/angry/happy/satisfied after I manage to come up with a conclusion.
Never liked hypocrisy. But some things just can't be avoided.
Maybe it's better that I don't think too much and just pretend nothing happened. Ignorance is bliss. =)
Better try to control my mood especially when nationals is coming since my performance is so freaking easily affected by my mood. It's really freaky. >.<
A Town Called Hypocrisy - Lostprophets (love their songs! Haha! =D)
{10:09 PM}
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Finally H3 2nd Term Assessment over! Though it's super dead for me, glad that it's over. For now at least. I think I should go and borrow some books so read for my H3 if not I totally can't imagine what's going to happen for the exam. =/ Sabrina says if you fail H3 the subject won't appear on your A' Level certificate? Not sure how true is it though.
Nationals coming up in barely a week! Jiayou HCVB! Let's get a gold back! =D
{6:29 PM}
Thursday, April 16, 2009
It has been quite some time ever since I felt so much stress over my studies. Perhaps it's due to the unsatisfactory performance for blocks1 though it isn't the direct cause for my stress now. Perhaps this under-performance made me feel that I shouldn't be doing anymore injustice to myself and I really should just work harder, at least for the coming H3 test.
Okay, I'm not emo-ing and I'm not going to commit suicide. Hahaha. Just need some place to rant. I guess it's time to study for my H3 test.
I'm so going to mug like shit after my season. Like really mug like I don't think anyone have seen before (maybe besides the CHS people who know me haha).
{9:20 PM}
Sunday, April 5, 2009
I think I'm having really bad moodswings these days. =/ Totally sucks... Shall try to control and calm myself. >.<
For now get back to work! Lab Report by tomorrow!!! Zzz......
{9:04 PM}
Saturday, April 4, 2009
Sometimes it gets really irritating when things just don't go the way you want it to be. Or rather it gets really frustrating and screwed up when things just go the way you don't want it to be.
Sometimes people think they know a lot and try to come up with their own conclusion when things just ain't like what they thought it to be. Then they get too overwhelmed by their own feelings that they think that whatever they thought was right and start to make baseless comments and remarks.
Not that I'm not like that. Sometimes I think I'm like this, getting too emotional over some issues that I don't get my facts right first before I settled with a conclusion of my own thoughts. It just pisses me off especially when people accuse me of something that I didn't think I did it in the first place. Sometimes things get to the extent of being condemned by some actions that you have never done before.
And I really hate rumours. Okay... Not that I have never believed or spread a rumour before but some things really get so out of hand that not only it is false but even the facts are totally distorted and personally I'm not really against people talking about me behind my back. Just don't let me know when all the facts get distorted. -.-!!
People may think that I'm too concerned over the views or comments of others. But for me there's a limit to how much I can take. It's okay when it concerns only me like how I'm a flirt/how my ego is so freaking-ass-big/how I'm so arrogant/whatever shit there is floating out there. But I hate it when all these things affects the people around me and get pulled down into this pile of shit together.
I think people who know me will know why I'm talking about all these...
So much for a "proper gander" destroying a person/organisation/nation...
{9:47 AM}